Heart Strings

Kids grow so fast! If I had a nickle for every time in my life I have heard that, my husband could immediately retire and my boys could go to ivy league schools. Now I am getting first-hand knowledge of just how fast they do grow. JD crawls on all the furniture now. I have probably had 10 mini-panic attacks in the past week because of this. David poses for pictures now! You can't tell in the pic above, it was taken pre-posing days; but now if a camera is pointed his way he will beam and show off his cutest expressions. It's adorable. They seem like such big boys to me; no longer the babies they were a few months ago. Yet they are only 1; I figure I've got at least 24 more years of hard parenting, then another 25 years of passive parenting. With all this growing up they have done, I sometimes feel I need to slow down and catch my breath. I mean, kids change whether you are ready for it or not! Then there are moments where they tug at my heart strings, still needing close comfort. Today these two had their 1 yr immunizations. It was aweful! They cried hard and shed big tears. Each in his turn tried to twist around and put his little arms around my neck, all heaving sobs and broken trust. My poor little guys! It's worse now than when they were tiny getting those needles. I ached for them, suddenly my little babies again, and wished I didn't have to put them through such a painful but necessary step in childhood. Right now to see them you wouldn't know they had such a traumatic experience a few hours ago; they are playing and fighting just like usual. Big boys. Happy and content to explore their world.