Monday, May 17, 2010

Change and Family

Grandpa and Grandma Surry came for a visit today!! Yay! We had a great time even for such a short visit. David and JD were a little shy at first, but overcame it quickly and had fun. Soon their Grandma & Grandpa will be moving 'to the mountains', as the boys say. We will miss having them so close after they move to BC!

Speaking of change, my parents will be leaving soon on their mission. They will be heading to Nauvoo the second their visas come in. Grandpa and Grandma Haynes seem very excited for this adventure, and I am excited for them. What a wonderful experience!

I cannot believe how fast the days fly. I don't really notice how much has changed until I read our family journal, or my personal journal. Then I realize just how much has happened in such a short period of time. Remember when you were young and summer seemed to last for ever?? Now the two months zip by in the wink of an eye! There doesn't ever seem to be enough hours in a day or days in a week to get everything accomplished.
Thinking of this, and of the boys grandparents leaving, moving - leaves me with a renewed goal to get together with extended family more often. I want my boys to know their grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins, which they won't if they only see them once a year. Last year my New Year's resolution was to see my family more - and I did it; I loved it. I miss my far-away family so much! Now even more of our family will be 'far away'. It makes me sad! So I shall make another resolution to see our far-away relations --- for the boys, and for myself. I love you all!!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Garden Spot

SO we finally did it! My husband, boys and I put in a little garden. It's tiny, very tiny, but it's awesome and we had a great time doing it. So much hard work though... we outlined the plot, then peeled back the grass like sod, dug up the earth and mixed in topsoil. Now we have 6 potato hills (or they will be hills, hopefully!), a small row of carrots, a small row of cucumber, and three small rows of peas. One more row to go, as yet undecided on what to plant. I love it!! The boys had a great time helping and planting... it was a wonderful family project. Fingers crossed we did it right and that eventually we will get to reap the rewards!!

****Pictures to come

Friday, May 7, 2010

This is not me. This person sitting here at the computer, listening to her children getting into Daddy's tools and creating new uses for them, is not me.

I am carefree, independant, wealthy and happy. I am someone who never loses their temper at the kids. I have a perfectly spotless home, smelling of fresh flowers and delicious dinner that will be ready at precisely the moment my husband walks through the door. I enjoy reading, writing, and I never ever yell at my dog. I do not have an eye twitch. Under no circumstances do I feel a crushing weight in my chest when I feel I cannot take another minute, because I never ever feel like I cannot take another minute. Everything I need is in exactly the spot I need it so I can always find it. I always have a stocked pantry and freezer because I am well organized and ahead of the needs of my family. I most certainly am not the woman sitting here, with hardly any food in the house and a headache from telling the kids repeatedly to not play with the printer. I am not this girl, who feels like she is the only girl on the planet to not have it all together. I am not this person sitting here, typing this, on the verge of tears because for the 4th time this week everything is coming apart at the seams, feeling like a failure as a mother yet again. I'm not her.

I don't know who she is.