David and JD are the greatest joy and biggest challenge of my life! Constantly I am re-evaluating myself and the way I handle situations.
I have my goals as a mother, and I have my goals as a wife. There are things I know I need to improve on, and other things I need to eliminate in my parenting style. This is such a big job! I am sure mothers everywhere have days where they feel inadequate and unprepared for the responsibility; I know I sure do. Then there are times when the happiness is so overwhelming that tears come to my eyes. These two extremes aren't always seperate from eachother; sometimes I feel those emotions moments apart.
I think alot of women in the world, because of their own choices, are greatly missing out on the beautiful role we have in life. Women are wonderful, powerful, and necessary in the traditional family; we have everything it takes to fill the role. I believe this about women: women have the necessary gentleness, peacefulness and strength required to mother children; women have the kindness, loving nature, and support to provide to our husbands; women have the intelligence, practicality and power to influence the world. I have learned this from my mother and the example she is to me. I grew up watching a mother who loved and supported and stood beside her husband through whatever the world threw at them, a mother who was tender and loving, teaching, creative, and disciplinary to her children, and a mother who helped and cared for others in need.
Do we have all it takes to be powerful women, wives and mothers? Yes we do. Do we improve and use these skills every opportunity we get? Probably not. I know I don't. I look at my sons and know it is my duty to do the best I can, using the resources I have been given. Sometimes the stress from that alone can cause me to want to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep!! But I know we are women because we can handle that mantle of responsibility. I am going to try harder! If we women try harder to fulfill our responsibility in this life, imagine what wonderful things could happen!!!
(oh, look at that...I guess I did have something to say after all. I never really know until I start typing.)