Today I went to the mom & tot playgroup! Okay, so I kind of cheated and went with my neighbor, but still...I left my comfort zone and actually initiated conversation with other moms. I can see myself becoming friends with a couple of the mothers because I opened my mouth and left my shy side at home. It was great! I had fun, was able to get out of the house for a few hours, and the boys were around alot of other kids. David and JD kept to themselves for the most part...which tells me I really need to do this more and on a regular basis. They did interact with other children at times though and it was so sweet to see! JD at one point was completely taken with this one boy; I don't know what it was that interested him but he stayed with this tot for a few minutes. At first it was just staring, then he put his little arms around for a hug; I started to get worried when JD began patting the boys head...gentle at first, then harder. Finally I broke it up when JD put his hands on the little guys shoulders and started shaking him! Now should this worry me? I have no idea. But if I get out and socialize the boys then they will learn how to behave around other kids. There were about...oh maybe 15 kids there, maybe 20. It was loud! David started to cry when a few of the kids were running around screaming. Poor baby! He cries at loud noises, and with the kids zipping around him he must have been so overwhelmed! He will get used to it though. I am confident that after a few more visits to the playgroup my boys will start to enjoy it and want to go every week.
Now I feel great; I feel like Superwoman! A feeling of accomplishment, like I overcame obsticles and did what was best for my boys, not what was easiest for me. Now I can take on ANYTHING!!